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Name: Paige
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Edwardsville Madison County
Birthday: 2/1/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: I love to read and write and all these things are good because I am currently an English major. People often ask what I love to read and that is a hard question to answer because I love to read almost anything. The Bible is the number one book on my list always and forever! After that...who knows. I'm always looking for suggestions as well. I also enjoy to cook, dance, sing, water-ski, hang out with friends, and Christmas is probably my favorite holiday! Movies and music are also an important aspect of my life.
Expertise: I don't know if I am an expert in anything specific...I suppose one could say English, but that could be debatable on certain days. I am constantly learning more. I would also like to say I'm an expert on my faith and the Bible, but once again...I have so, so, so, much more to learn and I love to discuss it with anyone interested because I'm constantly learning!
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AIM:  asianchica573
MSN: paige573@hotmail.com
Member Since:
11/28/2005
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My friend Jen and I have decided to write this book based on our experiences with men...in a more specific term with our lack of experience with men, but our heartache that has ensued from dating the wrong men. The men that have caused our heart ache and we want to prevent that for future women. Good women who don't deserve a guy to treat them as though they don't have a heart or emotions. However, I'm not saying that we women are perfect. I know that I have made my share of mistakes in breaking boys hearts and now that my heart has been broken, I know how it feels. So for all you guys out there that I've dated and broken your heart, I am so sorry. My excuses are no better than the excuses that guys feel the need to leave me. So, why do we feel the need to give the opposite sex all of these excuses when we want to break up with them? Why don't we want to just tell them the truth when we need to hear it...we may not neccessarily want to hear it at that moment in time, but I would rather hear the truth than these excuses that don't make any sense. I'm a big girl, I can take it. I remember one instance when I was dating a friend of mine, never date friends, it always ends in trouble...but anyway...he and I had been flirting back and forth for about a month and the thought of dating had never crossed my mind only because we were such good friends and at that moment in time our relationship seemed perfect. So why mess with a perfect thing? But we did. We messed with a perfect thing. And we started to date and that was the end of that. I knew that the relationship wasn't going to go anywhere and I knew that if I prolonged it, then it would hurt the guy even more when I did break up with him. But I would rather break his heart sooner rather than later, so I did. I dated him for about a month and a half and when I broke up with him, his face was so crestfallen that my heart broke to just look at it. He asked me why and I told him that I knew that the relationship wasn't going to go anywhere. I wasn't attracted to him anymore than friends and that it would be wrong to continue to date him. He looked at me as though I had just shot him through the heart. I told him that one day he was going to find an amazing girl that would be perfect for him, but I wasn't that girl. I was completely honset with him and while I knew that it hurt his feelings, it felt good to let him know exactly how I felt about him. A few months later he started dating this lovely girl whom he had a lasting relationship with and it was a good thing that I did break up with him because he wouldn't have met his next girlfriend without that. So why can't guys be honest with me like that? Why do they have to prolong the agony of the breakup by saying things like "No, it's not you, it's me" or "I still care about you, it's just not the right time." is there ever a right time? Probably not. Timing is all up to God, but we, as humans, feel the need to make it something more than it should be because we don't have enough faith to rely on God that He does know what He is doing and does know what is best for us. So for the time being, we think of all these things that seems to make the time go slower or faster or drag that pain on as long as we can because someone chose not to be honest with me or themselves. Will we ever grow out of that and just trust God? | | |
| I'm back in Edwardsville and I love it! I love going to school down here because of the people. I can't say how much I actually enjoy taking the classes because, like any college, they can get a little tedious at times. But, they're not too bad. I guess I can't complain too much then. I'm taking an Oral Interpretation of Literature class and when I went into that class I honestly thought that it was going to be lecture and learning how to interpret literature for high school kids, but I found out that we get to give monologues...sort of. We have to pick different types of texts through out the semester and read them out loud in front of the class and I believe that we have to actually get into the story. So...all things considering this could go good or bad. My professor for this class actually seems pretty cool though. She's pretty modern and willing to understand that her class isn't the only class that the class is taking. I'm also in an Oral Argumentation class and we get to learn to debate. My professor...oh my goodness. I think that the man weighs about 300 pounds. However, he does know what he's talking about and so far he seems like he's going to be a decent teacher. We're allowed to call him "poppa" or Alan, his first name, so I guess that that is pretty nice. Shows how laid back he is.
My roommates are pretty cool girls. Vanessa, Lj, and Katie. We all contribute something to the apartment so that's good and I think that this year will be pretty laid back unless something really heinous happens, but hopefully that won't happen. I'm sharing a room with Vanessa and we've gotten the room set up so that we can both put our desks in here and Katie brought the wireless internet and TV, so I think that we're pretty set :)
I'm forseeing some amazing things to happen this year and I can't wait to see what God's going to unfold this year! I just have a feeling that something big is going to happen. What, I don't know...I don't even know if I will recognize it when it happens, or if I'll just remember it for the rest of my life. They say that hind sight is 20/20, so who knows that I'll remember from this year down the road. I do miss some of the people that have graduated, but they don't live that far away so hopefully I'll be able to see them once in awhile as well.
Good things are going to happen this year :)
Peace, Paige | | |
| I need to go back to school to get away from all this drama! It's ridiculous! I never knew that coming home would cause so much drama. Is school almost here yet? It seems as though the less complicated I try to make my life the more complicated it becomes....goodness... | | |
| Having someone being disappointed in you is probably worse than having someone yell, scream, or even hit you. It's a deeper feeling, one that hits right at the core of the heart instead of being able to block it out and let it ricochet off of you, it just penetrates deeper and deeper until you can't take the disappointment any longer. One thing worse is being disappointed in yourself and yet still have to face the world with this knowledge about yourself that some people know and other people don't know. But through out it all you know and God knows and that is probably the hardest thing to live with. Why does life have to be so complicated? Why does Satan have to tempt us so with things that only cause trouble and bad things in our lives? I know that it's all for a purpose, that knowing that God is out there protecting you and loving you no matter what is a comfort, but all the while we are all still human and we all still make mistakes. I guess that it's just a matter of admitting to those mistakes and knowing that you can never go back and correct the past. You can only change the future. | | |
| Today I went to Rockford to hit up the mall and some other stores in the Rockford area and I decided that I spent WAY to much money today. But I did get two new swim suits that are REALLY cute :) I need to work more though in order to make up for all the money that I spent today. I guess that it's going to come and bite me in the butt because I need money in order to shop but working in order to make the money....however I work tomorrow so that should help some and once I start back at school I will hopefully have two jobs...one at Borders...yeah rah...and the other tutoring English...may not sound that exciting but trust me, the pay is well worth any boredom that I might recieve from the job. But I enjoy the people that work with and I enjoy the kids that come in and work with me because they're pretty smart people.
I am ready to head back to school though. It's about time that I leave the nest once again and head back to the life that I created down in Edwardsville. I love my friends and family here but I miss my friends from down south as well...so all will be right with the world once I head back down to Southern Illinois for awhile.
I got to go swimming yesterday...it was a good time. I learned how to play "savage ball", got dunked several times, marveled at the wonder of lightning, which we finally concluded was the prison blowing up (not really) and got really cold on the ride home, but I did get to ride a motorcycle...so that made up for it :) I can't wait to head to Kentucky for a week of sun and water-skiing, that is going to be simply amazing! Good times with family and getting in some last minute relaxation before I have to head back to the grind of school.
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